Still Trying

I am still trying to lose weight.  I go through phases. 

 I'm like a nursery rhyme:

 

There Was a Little Girl

There was a little girl who had a little curl,

Right in the middle of her forehead.

And when she was good she was very, very good.

But when she was bad, she was horrid.

When I'm dieting and watching and being "good"...I'm very, very good.
But when I cheat, I'm horrid.  We're talking pizza, cookies, French fries and ice cream.
Once I'm off the diet.. I'm really, really off the diet.  Then I have to start all over again.

Well, I'm here to say that I haven't given up. 

A few years ago, I joined Weight Watchers online and had success!  I lost about 18 pounds in roughly 3-4 months.  I felt good.  I had more confidence.  I should have stayed online and proceeded with maintenance, but I didn't.   I thought that I had the tools to do it myself.  And I did, but I lost my motivation.  I gained it all back plus a little extra.

Last month, I wanted to join WW online again.  But we are staring at a HUGE home remodel (we bought a fixer upper....check out my other blog The Windmill Cottage.)  We have a lot of expenses coming up, so in order to save a buck, I tried to do it on my own.  I kept a food diary in a notebook and used my points calculator I bought when I was on the program before.  I did okay, I lost 5 pounds in about 3-4 weeks.  This was with diet alone...no exercise.   Let me just say I was HUNGRY all day long.  And my only thought was about food.  How much could I eat?  When could I eat again?  How many points did I have left?  I really want to eat what my family is eating!  So, I quit.  For about 4 or 5 days, I just ate whatever I wanted, whenever I wanted.  But that left me feeling bloated and sick with heartburn and indigestion. 

Now I am trying to eat smart AND exercise.    I know, this is nothing new.  Everyone knows you need a balance of the two to actually lose weight and gain health. 

  I started a mini workout routine. 

 

I do this two times in a row.  My four year old does it with me!  He wanted to do the routine one more time this morning.  I think he's going to be my motivational coach. 

It's not much, but it's a start (one of many, but I just can't give up).

 

This, along with making much better food choices and not starving myself,

 hopefully will help me to see results. 

 

We Can Do This!